a season
Summer | Fall | Winter | Spring
Summer
I was able to visit a few months ago.
You looked healthy. Your version of healthy.
I watched you play with Ellie in the back yard.
You had coffee with me every morning through FaceTime.
I always asked how were you feeling.
You would say, in pain — you were always, unfortunately, in pain.
I watched you ache and sway in pain for years.
Fall
You called and said you weren’t feeling well.
I can see how tired you look.
You are on the couch napping before 10am.
I noticed it?
You had pneumonia and the hospital sent you home.
I told you to go back.
You went into septic shock.
I spoke to you while you slept.
You woke on the eleventh day.
Winter
You were admitted again — you have pain on your right side.
I flew to Florida.
You were told there’s a mass. More scans — three more masses were found on your lungs.
I fought.
You told me the hospital wanted to send you home to have the biopsy.
I fought again — No.
You had the biopsy in the hospital.
I read your pathology report before the physician —
You have cancer.
I knew.
You knew without me having to tell you.
I panicked.
Spring
I became obsessed with your medical chart — reading, rereading. Knowing.
You no longer have the Florida kissed skin.
I held you — embedding the memory of the smoothness of your skin.
You would ease off into sleep and squeeze my hand.
I watched your breathing — know I fought for you.
You died.
I had to tell mom.
| One size | |
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| Circumference, in | 22.83 |
A relaxed, low-profile cotton cap embroidered with a subtle, vintage-inspired wordmark. The soft, unstructured crown sits close to the head for a lived-in look, while the curved brim shields eyes without feeling bulky. Reinforced internal stitching and smooth cotton twill keep the shape breathable and comfortable through all-day wear. The adjustable Velcro® strap lets you fine-tune the fit quickly — slip it on for a morning walk, writing session at a café, or a casual market run. It reads understated and intentional: a quiet finishing piece that blends with muted wardrobes and layered outfits, adding a handcrafted touch without shouting for attention.
Product features
- 100% cotton twill for a strong, smooth print surface
- Unstructured, low-fitting crown for a close, broken-in feel
- Reinforced internal seams with cotton ribbon for added durability
- Adjustable Velcro® closure for quick, precise fit
- Lightweight and breathable — comfortable for all-day wear
Care instructions
- Use warm water and dish soap and clean spots off your hat. It's not necessary to soak the whole item. For hard to clean spots use a soft bristled brush.
